Grief Poem

Well - here it is again - way past whatever time I was supposed to be doing something else.  However, I have figured out how to have a separate page for poetry - but I will put my written today poem here.

Chrysalis

Once we stayed up all night singing
Once we went to the aquarium
to watch the jellyfish dance

Afterwards you waited on a bench
because your body was failing you
while I went to get the car
You were frightened
You thought I would not return

Once we travelled together to imaginary lands
Once we planted trees in our garden
to watch them root and grow

Now I wait on the bench
because your body failed you
there is no car for me to get
I was frightened
I thought you would not return

Then I felt the breath of a butterfly
saw a dewdrop glisten in the moonlight
let the stars tell stories

of the death of once we

and the birth of once I

I was inspired by another poem I read which talked about how used we are to creating new memories with our loved ones and then sharing them - once we did this - once we did that - and now it is up to us to figure out how to create memories without the physical presence of our loved one - good memories.  I do sometimes write poems about other things - as I often do other things.  This is where my grief speaks.  Sometimes shouts.  But with love and hope...or sometimes just hello there I'm awful sad without my husband  here in the flesh.  If sometimes my writing isn't very good - the hardest thing about it is that Artie was always my first reader.  Maybe he still is. Odd picture that - spirit folk in spirit cyberpace.